Ok so this is a really long and confusing story but il try to keep it short lol. I would like some advice. Im 22 years old, my current bf is 23 and my ex is also 23. It’s long, but bear with me :(

About 2 years ago, I met a man over World of Warcraft (Go ahead start ripping on me lol). I did not think much of it, but soon it turned into more than just chatting and playing together every now and then. We talked daily. and had a huge connection. Only problem was – he lives in Florida, I live in Canada. About a year later, a friend wanted me to go with her to Florida to visit her grandparents, so we looked at it as a short opportunity to meet up. He drove almost 4 hours to meet me, and the moment he got out of his car my heart skipped a beat. We had such an amazing time together, he took me everywhere, we did the whole romantic beach thing. Well it turns out near the end of my stay with my friend, me and her got into a fight and were not speaking. Again, he drove 4 hours to come get me to bring me back to his place so he could buy me a plane ticket home about a week later. We decided we wanted to start “dating”.Things seemed great. I went to visit him again a few months later and it was bliss. We even spoke of marriage for me to move down there. Everything seemed fine until we got into a couple stupid fights, which progressed into more, then one night I decided to end it because it was too stressful with us fighting all the time. I slowly started talking less and less to him for the next 5 months, even though he tried to contact me daily.

I just recently started talking to him again about 3 months ago, only by this time…I was in a relationship already. I know, too fast. My current boyfriend iv been with for 6 months, and I moved an hour away from my hometown to make it work to be in his city. He is a very loving guy, fun to be with, hilarious, we get along great. I love his family and they love me. Since iv been here, it’s been nothing but a downward spiral – Iv been unemployed for 5 months because getting a job out here is like digging up gold. Thus it has ruined my credit, and got my cellphone disconnected. Heres where the trouble starts – he has a very good job and makes alot of money. Since he still lives at home, lets just say he has no finnancial woe’s at the moment. Big screen tv, motorcycle, car. You get the point. I have been struggling beyond belief and had to go on finnancial assistance to live. He has lent me alot of money to help me…but he is very selfish. I have no problems with the idea of loaning money to your bf/gf whatever and expect to be payed back but he does it for almost everything. I needed cookware – he wants the $30 back for that, I needed medication for my fish – he wants the money back for that, We went out for dinner with a large group of his friends – he bought me some fries (this was a day after my bday…got no bday present) as I watched all the other men buy their gf’s drinks and food galore. When joking asked him for a bday shot – he claims he’s not made of money. This x-mas, I used my financial assistance money to get him a small gift. What did I get? nothing. After I even mentioned that even a card would be wonderful. The way I look at it, I gave up my family, my friends, my job, my credit is SHOT, my cellphone is gone…I owe over $1,000 on my cellphone alone. So him being selfish like this really, really bothers me. Aside from that, I caught him texting his ex to meet up with her while she was in town not too long ago after he promised me before I moved he wouldnt talk to her anymore. Now because of getting myself into debt up to my eyeballs and I got evicted from my room im renting because he slept over one night I am pretty much forced to move back to my old city to live with a friend. He is very upset over the idea. He works ALL the time so we would never have time to see eachother.

Im sorry this is a novel, but im almost done!. My ex from Florida..since iv been feeling so down about eveything, yet again those old feelings are creeping back in a big way. Aside from the pointless fights we had near the end he treated me like a princess. He told me he loved me everyday, anything I wanted to do we went and did. My current bf always calls me sexy…he calls me beautiful and tells me he adores me. He tells me im his everything, and he would give anything to be with me again. He does not know im still with my current bf, and he wants to pay for a plane ticket down there to go see him and relax for a week. Since im pretty much being forced to move back to my old town im so unsure of what to do it’s retarded. I have a hard time making decisions due to me being bipolar so everything I do – especially when it comes to big choices like this – feels like a mistake. Whats your opinion…try to make this work or break up with him for a chance to move 1000 miles away for the man I obviously still have deep feelings for.
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